Saturday, January 24, 2009


It has been a really long time since I posted anything personal. Things have been really good at work. I love my job and I have to say for the first time in a long while I am truly happy with work and I don't want things to change. That has been a intense relief after the last few years. Those of you who have followed the blog for years know that it has been a lot of ups and downs.
Along the personal front I have been seeing X a bit more lately. I started the new year naked in bed with him which was amazing. That was the first new years I started with someone I care about and had more than a friendship kiss. *grin* Half the time I have no idea where I stand with X.
Sometimes he seems to want more and then does the about face and I end up facing a blank wall. I did put myself out there though and asked him what he thought about sharing an apartment. My lease runs out in May and my current roommate wan ts to move in with his sister to have free rent while he saves for a house, so I was thinking maybe we could get a two bedroom and see how that goes. We would each have our own room and space, but it would be a step forward. We have been getting together for almost 9 nine years, in fact May 16 would make it 9 years. I have never felt such a connection with anyone physically and emotionally there are times when we both open up that it is just has intense. When I lie in bed with him skin touching skin I feel so safe and totally right with the world. That has nothing to do with sex and everything to do with him.


  1. Hi, you probably don’t know me, but I have read what you wrote. It was touching and weird for me not for you. Anyway, I hope that you get whatever you want from your life and that is your friend or boyfriend or lover….. ^_^

  2. Sounds like you're on a roll for a change. Congrats on that. Good luck with X. Hope a little pressure doesn't make him run. Men are pigs like that.

    Alan down in Florida

  3. I only brought up the idea see what happens in a few months

  4. I would got for it. It is hard to find someone who loves you and not just wants sex, so if you have someone like that who loves you, and you get hot sex too, go for it! The worst that can happen is it just doesn't work out, but you'll never know, if you don't try. Good Luck!

  5. All I can say is that I'm so glad things are turning right for you. AS for Mr. X, I think your route of moving into a 2 bedroom apartment isn't bad. Even then, he could have his own space if he needed it.
    Good luck!